Years ago I never would have pictured myself the way that I am now. I would have never thought myself to be a devout Christian, forsaking what a lot of people my age are involved and I never would have guessed that I would be going on the path of wearing skirts full time. The place and background I came from would have ever made me think that I would have turned out this way. I am so grateful for the life that I have now and the choices that I have made including switching over to wearing skirts full time. One thing that surprised me was the amount of questions that I have been getting since I began the process of switching over.
(Both are from about 3 years ago, one showing too much leg and the other cleavage. Also forgive the toilet in the picture)
I grew up in a non-Christian home. I had no real idea who God was until I was already in my teens. I acted as the typical girl of my age: immodest, crude and bending the rules. I got myself into some trouble and eventually found myself in a church. I felt drawn to the idea of church and to this God that I knew nothing of except the harshness that He showed those who followed Him. I couldn’t understand the girls my age in the church, dressing so modestly. While the idea of modesty varied with the girl, the answer to why they dressed as such was “For my God” or “Because the Bible says so”. Can I be honest how much that put me off as a 14 year old. Why would I want to follow a God that restricted what kind of clothes I could wear. So what if I chose to show too much skin or show some cleavage? It was my body and I had the right to decide what I wanted to do with it.
Here I was though, sitting in a church surrounded by people that I didn’t understand. As I sat there over the coming months though I learned a lot. I learned a lot about everything, particularly the God that I had been pushing away for so long. Needless to say I committed my life to Christ that year and continued to learn about my place with the Lord. However over the next couple years I struggled with what my relationship with Christ had to do with the clothes that I chose to wear. So I went on wearing the same things that I always have.
There were two things that truly shook and changed my faith as well as what I chose to wear. During this time I felt drawn toward these blogs of modest women who home schooled, ran their households and wore skirts full time. I became fascinated with it and interested that they were still able to do everything that they had to do during the day. It didn’t completely click until I saw the Duggars. I saw how the girls in their family were not only be able to do everything that they needed to do but also looked fashionable and young at the same time. It provided me with the knowledge of what it could look like. The second thing was the fact that I actually was told that someone didn’t know I was a Christian. If that is not a wake up call for a Christian I don’t know what is. Being told that my behavior caused someone to question my following of Christ is a big deal and it changed everything.
The older Duggar girls.
I understood then that the way I acted not only influenced how people looked at me but also how they viewed God. My acting immodest reflected back on God. I also learned that immodesty is not just dress but how you act. It opened my eyes to a whole new way to look at things. At that point I began on taming my tongue and acting more polite. I began to chose my clothes a little carefuller from then on, but was not full skirts.
The full skirts came about a year ago I began to change over to them. By this point I had studied modesty and learned that everyone had their own definition within the Church. I tried to find mine. As I prayed with God I felt Him leading me toward wearing skirts full time. I made the choice to follow His lead and have not regretted it. I feel so much more comfortable now. I don’t worry about people seeing anything I don’t want them to and feel better in my own skin. He granted me confidence. I feel free to be present in what I do and with the people I have around. He asked us to be modest one so He could free us but also to show Him obedience as well as love. By following this simple wish that He had for me I show my love and respect for Him.
So why is it that I dress in skirts? One: I reflect how people look at God. Two: He asked us to stay modest in both our behavior and clothing. This shows both obedience and love for the Lord. Three: It’s far more comfortable and freeing then anything you could ever know. Am I saying that everyone has to dress this way? Absolutely not. This is between you and God. I have no right to judge as we determine the line of modesty for ourselves. For some it is just wearing loose jeans and for some it is wearing skirts full time. I think the most important thing is the heart behind it. If the heart shows modesty then it will shine through you.
How do you define modesty?